The past two weeks have been nothing short of challenging for me. It’s been tough…work has felt like hell on earth…challenges that I’ve worked really hard to overcome in my personal life have been creeping up…I’ve felt like people all around me have been less than understanding (because everyone thinks they are top priority) and have tried to capitalize my time…it’s been tough! As I was riding home from the gym tonight, I was reflecting on my faith walk as of late and this question entered my mind…Am I too busy for God?
What a humbling wake-up call! Have I become so consumed with MY life, that I’ve placed God on the back burner. Although I would like to say no, that would be a lie. I’ve found that my prayers have gotten shorter…I skip my devotional at least a few days a week…I’m ready to speak a piece of mind to folks on a regular basis…it seems that I’m drifting away from God when I need to be drawing closer to Him. I’m not sure why this is weighing heavily on my heart tonight, but perhaps it’s because I recognize how faithful God has been to me and how much my life is not a reflection of Him and His love at this moment in time. How did I get to this place?
The blessing is, no matter how far I feel from God, He is still right by my side. My prayer tonight is that my relationship with God will again become the top priority in my life. My prayer is also that I will make time for more nights like tonight…I made an active decision to only do what I wanted to do tonight. I went to the gym because I wanted to…I left work at work because I didn’t want to be bothered…I just spent time alone with me, and it was good! Before I call it a night, I’m going to spend some time with God and just be open to whatever it is the He has to say to me tonight. For when He speaks, all things work out!
Peace and blessings.