I need to write, but I’ve got nothing in me right now. Yet, I’m committed to writing because it’s a part of my 101 journey and I’m determined to finish the work on my book before the end of the year! Given these things, it seems like getting stuck in a writing funk is not an option…
So, I’m going to do some reading and thinking tonight to see what thoughts begin to stir in my mind. And then, I’m going to write because it’s been too long since I’ve worked on my book, and deep down I know there’s something in me that needs to be shared with the world. I can’t let momentary mental challenges stop me…
“My story matters because I matter.” – Brene Brown
For the past few weeks, I’ve been focusing on reading more…it’s one of my 101 challenges. My goal is to read 10 books that I currently own but have not completed. Some days, I manage to get in a few chapters, while others just a few pages, but I’ve been intentional in reading and reflecting for a few moments daily. It’s been good, and I’ve now managed to read two of the ten books! A few weeks ago I finished In a Pit With a Lion on a Snowy Day by Mark Batterson.
Today, I finished reading The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown. I’ve had the book for a long time, but I’ve never managed to get through it. Perhaps this is because the book requires one to do the tough work of self-reflection (the book’s subtitle hints at this very thing – Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and EMBRACE Who You Are) or maybe I’ve just been too busy doing a bunch of nothing to stop and read a book! I’m certain it was the self-reflection piece that kept me from reading the book. For me, genuine self-reflection is hard stuff (I bet the same is true for you), but it’s so freeing for the one who is daring enough to do it! I’ve learned that many of us are content not digging deep into the depths of our souls to deal with our life issues, but I’m convinced that honesty is still the best policy. Unfortunately, over time, we’ve mastered the art of “wearing the mask that grins and lies”…oh yes, “with torn and bleeding hearts” we know how to smile, but somehow we’ve managed to forget how to truly live. Living authentic and wholehearted lives is a daily struggle, well for me at least…but this book challenges its readers to face this struggle with an open heart and a sense of expectation. I would encourage anyone to give this book a try.
Now…I must offer this disclaimer, I had a major meltdown in the middle of the book. I’m talking an “I’m done with God” meltdown! This book made me want to cuss (ok, I did cuss…I’m just being honest)! In dealing with me…I was left feeling quite vulnerable. For a moment, I felt like my life was shattered in a million pieces with no hopes of repair! I felt like I had failed myself, I felt like I had failed God, I felt like God had failed me, and I just felt downright sorry for myself! I’m currently recovering from the meltdown…I’m still feeling the effects of it…but I pushed myself to keep reading the book and I’m still doing the hard work that goes along with this journey! And, I think I’m glad I did. The author ends the book with a statement that sums up my present journey pretty well…one minute you’ll pray that the transformation stops, and the next minute you’ll pray that it never ends. You’ll also wonder how you can feel so brave and so afraid at the same time. At least that’s how I feel most of the time…brave, afraid, and very, very alive.
Will you embrace your gifts of imperfection?
About two weeks ago on a casual ride home, I stumbled upon a beautiful treasure tucked away in Harford County, the Jerusalem Mill Village. I didn’t have a chance to stop that day, but managed to go back for a visit over the weekend. What an awesome story this place offers…
The Jerusalem Mill was established in the late 1700s and remained open in some capacity through the mid 1900s. It started out as a mill and ended up as a local convenience store before it ultimately closed down. The one interesting fact that I learned during the visit was that Joppa, MD was the major port city of Maryland for many years until the water became to shallow to accommodate large shipping vessels. This led to the Port of Baltimore taking shape as we know it today. Kinda neat!
Over the last several years, the buildings that define Jerusalem Mill Village have been restored into a piece of living history. What really captured me as I rode through the village the first time was its potential for creating beautiful pictures (it has so much scenery to offer…I can’t wait out to get out there with my real camera), but what fascinated me during my visit was the rich history of this small community. What an awesome reminder that the so-called small things in life have the ability to make a major difference in the world!
What local spots fascinate you?
I’m so excited to be on the journey to 101! Today, I’m checking swim lessons off my list…yay! I took swimming lessons as a child, but that was a really long time ago, and I’m pretty sure I never managed to perfect the art. So…I decided that now was a great time to jump back in the pool and take lessons again. Today was the first class and I think I did rather well (if I must say so myself). We started nice and easy with bobs and progressed to swimming laps using kickboards. The competitor in me was happy to take on every challenge the instructor put before me. While I could feel the fatigue in my legs when I got out of the pool, I had a great time! I can’t wait to get back in the water and practice my kicks this week…
A few years back I wrote a 101 in 1,0001 list. I got the idea from my cousin Tiffany, and found that it was really helpful in pushing me to do some things that otherwise may fall off the radar screen. So, for the past month, I’ve been slowly working on my new list. There are some things that I never managed to check off of my old list that I’ve recycled, along with some new things. I’m looking forward to another leg in my life journey….there are lots of great things out there to do, if we’ll just set aside the time to do them!
This journey began on June 1, 2017 and I’m hoping to check everything off the list by February 27, 2020!
Things to Do/Personal Challenges
- Finish writing my new 101 list…I don’t think it will be so hard this time! – Completed 7/7/2017
- Complete photography CE certificate requirements.
- Finish watching Dear White People. – Completed
- Write 5 letters to 5 people who have had a positive impact on my life. (6/24/2018: 2 of 5 written and sent.)
- Organize my computer files.
- Organize my iTunes library.
- Make a list of my fears and what I can do to face and defeat them.
- Complete a 30-day photo challenge.
- Make an address book with contact information for family and friends.
- Go to Morgan’s Homecoming Gala.
- Launch new website. – Completed
- Write and publish a book of devotions.
- Write on my blog weekly for 52 consecutive weeks.
- Get to work by 8 am every day for an entire month.
- Go without watching TV for one week.
- Bike round trip from Baltimore to Annapolis.
- Go to Top Golf.
- Play a round of golf on a course
- Plant a garden.
- Make a batch of homemade soap.
- Make a batch of bath salts. – Completed
- Attend PlantNite.
- Visit the Newseum. – Completed
- Visit the National Museum of African American History and Culture.
- Host a dinner party for friends.
- Host Thanksgiving dinner for family and friends.
- Host Family Christmas Party.
- Attend the Rehoboth Beach Jazz Festival.
- Start or participate in a MasterMind Group.
Personal Growth and Enrichment
- Finish reading 10 books I currently own but have not read in their entirety. (6/19/2017: Read 1 of 10)
- Write a living will.
- Write a letter to open at the end of the 1,001 days challenge.
- Write a letter to open when I’m 40.
- Write a Personal Mission Statement.
- Identify my core/guiding values and display these in my home.
- Write in my journal for 30 consecutive days.
- Write a letter of forgiveness to those people who have hurt me in my past…won’t send it, but will write it.
- Go on a vacation(maybe a camping trip) with my immediate family. – In Progress
- Have lunch with my Dad.
- Take a photography workshop with my brother.
- Go on a spa day with my sister-in-law.
- Go to tea with my mother. – Completed 5/12/2018
- Spend a day with my oldest nephew.
- Go on a movie date with my middle and youngest nephew.
- Bake holiday cookies with Kim.
- Go to Ebenezer’s Coffeehouse with Pastor Ann.
- Go on a weekend ski/snow tubing trip with friends.
- Complete a 5K (walking or running) with Ronnie to celebrate her weight loss journey.
Faith and Spirituality
- Read the Bible in its entirety.
- Create a prayer and meditation space in my home.
- Complete seminary (or get very close).
- Take swimming lessons. – Completed
- Take a guitar class.
- Take a piano class.
- Take a cooking class.
- Take 3 photography courses.
- Learn to hand dance.
- Take an Intermediate WordPress course.
- Attend Global Leadership Summit. – Completed
Health and Fitness
- Complete the Whole Life Challenge.
- Run/walk 30 miles in 30 days. – In Progress
- Complete a 10K race.
- Lose 25 pounds.
- Go rock wall climbing.
- Run in the St. Michael’s Running Festival.
- Bike a century.
- Complete a sprint triathlon.
- Complete a 50 push-up challenge.
- Complete a plank challenge.
- Consume zero cookies for an entire month.
- Document my meal choices for 30 consecutive days. – In Progress
Things to Own
- Upgrade my dSLR.
- Buy prime lens.
- Buy new lamps for my bedroom and living room.
- Buy my first home.
- Buy a new laptop.
- Buy a new pair of sunglasses. – Completed July 3, 2017
- Pay off my car. – Completed
- Save 10% of my annual salary.
Things to Do at Home
- Organize my filing cabinet.
- Create a weekly cleaning schedule.
- Finish decorating my bedroom.
- Make my bed every day for 30 consecutive days.
- Create a functional office space in my home.
- Frame and hang my artwork from Nigeria.
- Create an art gallery in my home that features my own creative works.
Places to Visit
- Go on a European vacation.
- Visit Western Maryland. – Completed October 2017
- Visit Great Falls Park.
- Go on a cruise.
- Go to New York during the Christmas season and see the Christmas Show at Radio City Music Hall.
- Take a trip to Canada. – Completed
- Take a trip to Albuquerque, NM.
- Go to the US Open…I love tennis!
- Attend the Martha’s Vineyard African-American Film Festival.
- Spend an afternoon in St. Michael’s.
- Spend a day in Old Town Alexandria.
- Take a trip to Bermuda.
- Take a beach vacation.
- Organize a scholarship fund to give a book scholarship to at least 1 high school senior annually.
- Donate books to a school/organization.