As another year comes to an end, I’m once again setting aside time for a bit of introspection. As I get older, I find that reflecting on both the positive and negative aspects of myself helps me identify ways in which I’ll try to approach my life a bit differently in the future. Whereas I once avoided this hard work, I now find that it helps to ensure I’m always moving in a positive direction. So, tonight, I’m going to share part of this reflection process (I’m taking this one area at a time) as I feel strongly that writing things out makes one more accountable, and more importantly, sharing my goals publicly surrounds me with individuals who can ensure I’m not slacking in working towards my personal goals.
I’ll start with what’s perhaps easiest area for me…fitness & nutrition!
The first things I shall acknowledge are:
1. Innately I strongly dislike exercising,
2. I would prefer junk food over healthy food most days of the week, and,
3. I’ve been an epic failure in the fitness and nutrition areas of my life over the past year!
The blessing is, despite my natural tendencies and failures, I recognize the importance of both exercising and healthy eating, and would sincerely like to live a healthier life in the coming weeks and year ahead. For several months now, I’ve moaned and complained about gaining weight and additional soft layers, but feeling sorry for myself has gotten me nowhere. As the picture so eloquently states, “The question isn’t can you, it’s WILL you?” That said, I will do better in 2013 than I did in 2012. I fully recognize that I MUST slow down and release the clutter that fills my mind, my life, and my space so I can focus on leading a healthier life. I heard the question asked in a podcast this week, “What works better for you…finding an hour a day to exercise now or being dead 24 hours day a later?” Ummm…I’ll take an hour of exercise for $100.
In 2013 (well, really I think I’ll get started now), I WILL be more intentional in planning my meals and snacks weekly, I WILL make preparing a variety fresh veggies every week a priority, and I WILL write protected gym time into my personal calendar. I know I can become a bit obsessed with things of this nature, but I need to be obsessed…tomorrow is not promised, so I need to take care of the vessel that God gifted me with!
Until nest time…
Last week was some week for me…it was long and challenging (at best)! As I was out running some errands this evening, a thought was impressed upon my heart…“Pray for your enemies”! After the way last week ended, this was the last thought I wanted to emerge in my mind, particularly because I have trouble not acting on my convictions, but I can’t always control the things that pop into my mind. So, as I was circling my promises in prayer tonight, I found myself praying for my enemies, known and unknown, as well. The interesting thing is, my prayer wasn’t that they would get the bad that I feel they deserve or that they would experience pain and suffering, rather, my prayer was that God would forgive them for their wrongs just as He has forgiven me, that His spirit would infiltrate their being, and that He would heal their entire being, for only hurting people hurt people.
I didn’t pray for those people who dislike me because they are my favorite people whom I want to receive God’s richest blessings, I prayed for them because I’m obligated to. I recognize that the only way I can receive God’s promises for my life is by releasing the bitterness from my heart and forgiving even my enemies. I’m in no way saying I’m there yet…I would be lying if I said I’ve forgiven every one of my enemies. Frankly, my enemies make me sick and praying for them stinks! Let’s be honest, why in the world would we want God to show compassion towards those who are far less than compassionate towards us? Why should I want to pray for the people who sit and plot out my demise…why should I want God to help those people who hardly have a good bone in them? These questions will always linger in my mind, but I recognize that in praying for my enemies, I’m doing my part, and for that God will indeed prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
So, while I’m not happy about praying for these folks, I’m working on doing better at being obedient, so I’m going to praying for my enemies. And because I’m praying for them, I know God will bless me!
Until next time…
My current life interferes with the life I desire to live! – DMW
Sometimes I wonder if I sit and think about life too much. I’m always trying to make sense of everything and attempting to better understand how life works. I’ve been back at it again this week, but this time, I’m ready to not only think about things, but I’m ready to start moving and implementing the change I desire! Today’s conclusion: My current life interferes with the life I desire to live!
How did I come to this conclusion? After taking a moment to reflect on what my life looks like right now, I realized that there are a lot of things that capture my interest, but the self-imposed busyness of my life prevents me from seeking out those things. What I’m currently doing is preventing me from living the life I want to live. I’ve been wanting to take tennis lessons for a little while now, and today found out that the local community college is offering a class on Saturdays this fall. This made my day until I realized that on 4 of the 6 Saturdays that the class is being offered my schedule is already occupied by other things! Seriously…it’s not even fall yet, and my weekends are that packed! This left me feeling some kinda way because I’ve slowly allowed my life to be controlled by the desires of others, rather than the desires of my own heart. That’s not to say that the things that are currently on my schedule are not of interest to me because they are, but these things are interfering with the life I desire to live at this moment.
In light of this, I find myself reevaluating my priorities. I have to dig down deep and truly consider what is a priority for me…is it my career, spending time with my family, pursuing a dating life, exercising, hanging with friends more often, doing church work, spending time alone, taking pictures, competing in 5K races, taking classes at the community college…the list could go on and on and on. Recognizing the infinite nature of this list reminds me of the importance of always being aware of the fluidness of life. The world around me is constantly changing, and as a result, I must allow change to inhabit my life as well. Doing the same thing over and over again won’t yield significantly different results and resisting change won’t make life any easier. This shift in my thinking about my priorities may cause some strife and stress in my relationships with others, but that’s just the way it will have to be. As the picture references, “It’s time for me live my life on MY new canvas!”
Until next time…
Over the past few weeks, I’ve spent a lot of time observing the behaviors of myself and others. I’ve quietly watched, listened, and, in turn, thought about a number things, but one thought resonated deeply within me. It was simply “No More Excuses!” I have decided that this will be my mantra for 2012!
As people, we have a tendency to make an excuse for why we choose to remain in our current state of being rather than make a decision to make some changes that will allow us to be in the state of being we desire to be in. I find myself talking a lot about how I need to make some things happen, how I want to be in this place or that place, how I want to do this, not that, and such, but I am now forced to ask myself the question, “What am I doing to be the change agent in my own life?”
I talk a lot about the direction I want to see my life take, but I’m not so sure that I’m taking the steps to get there. For instance, I’ve gained a few pounds over the past few months. I’ve got a great excuse for this, but if I want to get back on track, I have to let go of the excuses and start engaging in behaviors that will yield results (the homemade cookies are not helping the cause). I could give a number of similar scenarios in other areas of my life, and the same principle holds true. I state that I want to observe a change, yet I’m not taking the appropriate steps to get there. But…in 2012 (well, really starting today!), I’ve decided to be the change agent in my life!
At one point in my life, I definitely did not have the confidence to step out and take the risk that is innately associated with change, but that’s no longer the case. Change is still difficult to embrace, but I fully recognize that in order to find winning results, you have to experience the challenges of change. At different points in life we have to expand our skill set, expand our circle of friends and associates, put some restrictions on our behaviors, cut off some friends, take a stand for what we believe in, do something that everyone else thinks is crazy, be uncomfortable, cry, smile, laugh, feel hurt, feel anger, show love, and go through growing pains. These are elements of change that are needed if we choose to no longer make excuses for not being where we want to be.
For 2012, the excuses are thrown out the window and door. It’s time for me to be about the change. I am my own CHANGE AGENT!
It is easier to find an excuse than to find a reason. -Doug Brown
There’s a difference between interest and commitment. When you’re interested in doing something, you do it only when circumstance permit. When you’re committed to something, you accept no excuses, only results.